18/March 7

A few years ago my mother told me that the only thing she wanted for my sister and I growing up was to like her. Her decision while I was growing up has effected my life personally and professionally. I would love to own this completely and not say it has anything to do with my parents but these personal hurdles I have to jump in my life is blantantly due to the lack of consistency and discipline I had growing up. It rolls over into my teaching and frustrations. Bah! I know I just need to look back and say it sucks. I need to buck up and just do it so I can continue to change for the good instead of harping over it day after day.

Other than that, I am going to be running a 1/2 marathon on January 12, 2008 :-) I signed Damon and I up tonight... after I went for a run. I have always wanted to run a marathon for the sake of "doing the one thing you think you cannot do." I also want to capitalize on the feeling I get when I run... being able to take on anything, feeling powerful and centered.

Missing DP... as every day. Feeling blessed with the amount of support and love I am surrounded by at this point. I have people around me that are caring for me and taking me under their wings. It makes me feel meek and shy... kind of Wayne's World "I'm not worthy." I think in my mind "how do I make it up to them?" I don't need to make it up to them but I would like to ... in order to repay the happiness they've given me.